I’m sad, and I don’t know why.
I still miss you.
I’m trying to ignore all the signs. When you’re sick, I make up a silly excuse for it in my head like you just choked on your food or something. I want to believe that you’ll be the oldest Great Dane, you only need to live another 4 years, you’ll be able to do that wont you? You’re so strong, I know you are, you jumped over a fucking 12ft fence for gods sake! You’ll be able to get through this, you’re not going to die any time soon. I distract myself every time the thought of this stupid horrible disease comes into my head, I can’t think about it else I’ll break down. I need to be strong, you need to be strong, please keep on going, I need you.
^ Reading that makes me cry. I know you’re not in pain any more, but the emptyness you’ve left behind is horrible. I grew up with you, you and Pup, I’ve always had two dogs all my life, now you’re gone and there’s just Pup, even she doesn’t know what to do. It’s heartbreaking to see her looking around for you, to see pain in her eyes, she’s lifeless now. I don’t know what to do, this on top of other shit makes life shit right now. I love you so fucking much beautiful, I hope you’re okay up there <3
candlesblownyearspassed asked: You will get thru this Summer, i know you will.
:( I’m trying. Thank you <3
I’m freaking out, I can’t breath, I can’t stop crying, I need to calm the fuck down.
foreignreason asked: Your blog is awesome! and you are really beautiful! :) x
Aw thank you! :)) <3
